Yes I love Jesus but I deny it.

We need to be wiser as we grow in the Lord and especially when we find ourselves in a hostile environment. The Bible admonishes us to be wise as serpents and harmless as doves.  Matt 10:16.  We are further strengthened by Ps 34:19 that many are the afflictions of the righteous but God delivers them from them all.  These two verses best explain the testimony of  '42', a persecuted christian.